is there another chance to make things right?

 

Photo 7-2-16, 10 31 14 AMhave i done the right thing?

have i said the wrong things or
did i keep to myself the things i should have said?

have i stood up and fought for the important things or
did i just let things that really matter pass me by?

do i keep the memories that are worth remembering or
have i easily forgotten them all?

did i choose to hold on to something that i shouldn’t have and
let go of the things that i should have kept forever?

have i cared too much or
have i cared too little?

am i correct to avoid the things that will hurt me or
is it foolishness not to fight and get hurt?

will confusion disturb me for a long time or
will confusion make me balance things out?

was i ever a careful thinker or
was i always been an impulsive emotional?

is it too soon to stop or
is it too late to turn back?

should i move on and just learn from my mistakes or
should i try to go back and make things right?

will there ever be another time, another moment or another chance?
or is there only one chance and i can only be grateful or regretful?

*wrote this note in Facebook 6.5 years ago..
i wonder what was happening that time for me to write this..

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Sometimes, Pain is Not Enough

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Photo: Credits to the Owner

I tried to move on..
I tried to ignore how I feel..
I thought pain was what I needed to let go..
I was wrong..
I felt too much pain already..
But it seems like it’s never enough..
How much suffering do I need for my heart to learn the lessons?
Is there a way to control the heart?
Should I wait for it to be numb?
Can it ever be numb?
Everyday I feel a greater pain..
A wound that never heals..
A wound that grows deeper..
But still, I continue to love..
I want to escape from this misery..
When can I get through this?

When? 

*One of the few notes I wrote when I was hurting so much because of a past love..
This entry was written in 2009..
So please be assured that I have already moved on and I am no longer hurting..

They Say..

IMG_6771They say that time can heal the wounds..
But how long should it take?
Impatience is ruling over me..
I’m sick of crying because of the same pain again and again..

They say that distance can help forget..
But how far should I go?

Loneliness is overwhelming me..
I’m scared of remembering the same memories again and again..

They say that finding someone else can make us move on..
But who else should I meet?
I’m tired of realizing that he’s still the one I love again and again..

But then, they also say,
True love never dies..
Maybe, I guess, this one is true..
Because in my heart I know that the one I truly love has always been you..

*Wrote this poem in year 2007.. 
The year when I was hurting so much because of a past love..
Today is 2016- I just want to be clear, I have already moved on.. 🙂